Exciting News!

Preston has walked independantly today!!! He walked in the bathroom from commode to sink, which is not far at all, as we really have a small bathroom. But then he walked out the bathroom door into the living room and to his bedroom door. Without any help!!! He then walked in front of his desk to his hospital bed, turned around and sat down on it. He is steadily improving now, especially since we got him the cane. But the walking from the bathroom to his room was without the cane.

Last night we heard a tremendous message on being lukewarm. To be honest, I guess I feel that way. It is more like a feeling of numbness inside. Have you ever felt numb to where you feel like you can't feel anything?? I think it is fibromyalgia fatigue, discouragement, mental and physical exhaustion from all that has happened since April 30th. One church we went to used to sing a chorus, "I never got tired yet, I never got tired yet; way down in the bottom of my heart, I never got tired yet." I am not sure I can sing that. I guess I am just so tired of fighting the battles year after year. Is that ok to feel that way? It has been a long hard road, and I think it is just now catching up with me. It is just to the point in my life (maybe because I am 50 now???) that I cannot push myself any longer. Maybe when I get rested out I will feel differently. Right now, I can only seemingly do what is necessary in my home and for my family, and that is it. I cannot reach out much to anyone else, or do anything for my church; cannot even attend all the services. I just wonder how long it will be this way. I know having a sick child for 19 1/2 years has taken its toll. And I am not getting any younger. And I have fibromyalgia. I have to take all of that into consideration. Just wanted to share my heart.