Saturday

I am glad it is Saturday. Jr. worked from 6-12 then has been home with us and that has been so nice. We just had a quiet afternoon. We got Preston up and I cut his hair and he was happy about that. He sat up for quite a while. His eyes have been just a sparkling today!

I have been feeling so tired, and then a headache, and not resting too well. I think maybe part of it is depression. I know I missed my meds. today, and have to be sure to take them tomorrow. I am very happy to be home, don't get me wrong, and very happy Preston is doing as well as he is, but I guess it all is catching up with me. I never talk to anyone or see anyone except the medical help that comes in, except maybe my mom, brother, my mother inlaw, on the phone. I guess I am kind of lonesome. We have no family, and not really any close friends. We just haven't had much opportunity to have friends with all that has happened in our lives since Preston has been born. I am so glad we have each other. Many times we say that is all we have, and God, too. I am not trying to put a guilt trip on anyone, but we have not had one visitor outside of medical people since Preston has been home in 3 weeks (will be on Monday.) I know people are busy and have their own lives. But I think it would help him a lot too to have company. I told Jr. I think that is why he is so happy to even have the nurse come by and take his blood pressure. Ok, so I am being a baby, but I guess I deserve to be after the past 12 weeks. I guess I am a little sad too because my mom got married today and I couldn't be there. She called me after her and Jim left the reception to go on their honeymoon. But Lord willing, Missie and I are going to fly up before winter for a few days to visit.

I hope tomorrow I will feel better. I will, if I take my meds. I try not to forget, or I start feeling down. Also, if I don't rest well, I don't feel well either. When Jr. got up this a.m. Preston was soaked. So he changed him, and then when I got up he was soaked again, and I had to strip the whole bed. It was a good hour before I got to eat breakfast, having to strip, bathe, give meds. and feed Preston. On Monday an organization called Community Long Term Care is coming and they will be helping with sending an aide etc. Missie and I will get to go places while she is here, if I can keep the car those days. They will also build us a ramp and help buy diapers.

Soon headed to bed.