So soon?

Wow, this is amazing. I blogged yesterday and now again today?

Well, we heard a fabulous message last night from Dr. Kaufman. It was almost like he was telling Jr.'s and my life story. Yes! I couldn't believe it. He preached on Abraham and Isaac. You might not see the connection, but believe me, we did! God asked Abraham to give up his most prized possession, his only son. Last June, it looked like we might have to give up our only son. But just as Abraham had the knife raised to obey God, God stepped in and provided a ram. Just when Preston was at the lowest ebb and near death, God stepped in and touched him and gave him back to us. He said he didn't know why God takes us to the very bottom and then steps in; but it is His way. And yes, it is a HARD way. But you know what? God gave us back our son, and what a sweeter, different son we have now. He is so much happier, and sweeter, and our love for him continues to grow. Yes, we get tired. I am with him almost 24/7 and some of his quirks and routines get to me sometimes. Yes, I have taken care of him for 20 years and I am wearing down. And I have been in the valley of discouragment for a while. I usually bounce back quicker than this, but this time, I am just having a harder time getting back up, so to speak. Sometimes I see a small ray of hope, but not enough to bring me out of this valley of discouragement. But maybe over time, I will regain my strength and overcome. Some would say it is time to get back up, and get over it, but unless you have been there, you just don't know. It is easier said than done. So I continue to plod along on this journey. I am going through all of the motions of life, but not having a lot of joyous emotions, but "joy comes in the morning." When my morning will be, is yet to be known.